~Transcending the Levels of Consciousness: The Stairway to Enlightenment,
by David R. Hawkins, M.D., Ph.D.
I had the pleasure of practicing with several friends. Which is a nice change of pace from my usual self-practice with me, my mat, and four walls... However, upon waking this morning my body at first did not experience the same pleasure of rising, moving, and stretching despite the fact that I had been and still was so looking forward to practice this morning, (as I stated earlier). I almost didn't get up to practice. Its amazing how one day I can wake up, move and breathe with little resistance and the next day everything feels a bit tighter... the mind a bit more rigid. But, its days like this that we can really learn to surrender and simply show up. I have found that is the most important part of the practice. It isn't necessarily what posture I'm on or what series I have mastered. Its the daily commitment I make and the aspect of letting go to the process. As we let go...naturally everything comes in due time... many times faster than expected. And with that reminder, my body became lighter as I flew to class, through class, and out of class into the world, fresh and awake. Spring really does make me feel more alive. Like my body has been in a cocoon throughout the winter, nourishing itself and resting, and now, it's alive and ready to blossom.
This morning, I made my way back to Gypsy Yoga at Urban Gypsies here in town. I'm putting my feelers out for it. I always like to give something new a good run before coming to any conclusions. But, I must say, I leave there feeling incredibly good every time. During savasana and while our teacher, Sherri, reviewed the purpose and focus of the class, I was blown away... I felt expanded in every direction, and ripped open in a way. Its all very interesting. Its been an interesting time for me. I feel like a sponge...ready to soak in as much as I can...
I've been in a space of willingness and openness... with a slight amount of intense vulnerability (about moving to Minnesota), but it has been good.
I used to think I had to prove that I was so strong, but exposing the soft parts of ourselves and shedding the walls doesn't mean a lack of strength... not in the least. So, despite my feeling of vulnerability, I am looking forward to my future. To my new venture in Minnesota with the love of my life and to the unknown.
I feel very lucky to have the friends and acquaintances that I have and I will miss them. I could never say I have a 'best' friend because each one of them offer something different... and bring a varying color to my life... I feel very blessed to have all these different perspectives. I learn so much from them, and continue to. Oh...how it has helped me.